What if I’m gone to someplace,
To a point of no return,
With a one-way ticket,
No way whatsoever out of it?

Would you look for me?
Would my presence be missed?


Feeling Down

Been feeling down for he past few weeks already, dunno what the cause is myself. Been trying to look for what causes it or for anything that could help uplift myself..

Maybe it’s all due to my past, my experinces in life which has given me a negative impact, not sure if that’s the reason but I think it might be one..

Been trying to get rid of that urge but lately it’s been coming back and with each day it’s becoming stronger and stronger.. I’ve been wanting to just lie down there and sleep for a long, long time, never to wake again under the earth…


Inborn Thing

Alright, so I might need to get a surgery done on me depending on what the doctor sees fit after I take a visit to his/her office. Why? Read down below.

I was born with my intestine protruding from just above my belly button (no it isn’t really outside my stomach, just that the tissues or muscles in the area are thin compared to what they should normally be resulting to it protruding), the doctor who was in charge of my mom while my mom is giving birth told my mom that if it grows/enlarges or should I feel anything due to it, I would need to get a surgery to have it taken care of.

At first I thought that it wasn’t growing in any way and I am not bothered by it as I don’t feel anything that the cause would be this inborn thing until I recently found out that at a certain position, I could see that it actually grew, therefore needing me to have it checked by a doctor.

Depending on what the doctor sees and recommends, I might need to have the surgery, great isn’t it?


What if?

What if I suddenly disappeared?
No one knows where I might be,
No one has seen where I went,
No news whatsoever of where I am.

What if I ended it myself,
Got tired of everything,
Had enough if this tiring life,
And I decided to finally end it all?

What if I’ll be gone forever?
Never to be seen or heard from,
Just a last couple of days for visits,
Then I’m gone forever from this world?

What if I’m at the edge right now,
Ready to fall with just a light blow,
Not wanting to hold on anymore,
Just wanting to forever be gone?


Because I know I can’t have you.

Sad truth.. :’(


Because I know I can’t have you.

Sad truth.. :’(

“I’ve learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. I’ve learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I’ve learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you’ll miss them when they’re gone from your life. I’ve learned that making a “living” is not the same thing as making a “life.” I’ve learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I’ve learned that you shouldn’t go through life with a catcher’s mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back. I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I’ve learned that even when I have pains, I don’t have to be one. I’ve learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn. I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.” Maya Angelou (via feellng)

(via unicaiha)



I feel like going someplace,
One with a nice atmosphere,
A wonderful place filled with plants,
A place where I can relax and not mind the burdens I face,
Someplace where I can be at ease…


Why do I?

Why do I care about you so much,
that I worry for your safety always,
that I worry for your health,
that I’d like to always be there for you?

Why do I want to keep you happy,
that I would buy you anything,
that I would give you the best I can,
that I would do anything for you?

Why do I think of you always,
that I would lose some sleep,
that I would lose focus on things,
that I would see your face in my mind?

Why do I feel these towards you,
that I’d like to spend time with you,
that I’d like to be your superman,
that I think I’m crazily in love with you?


Honestly speaking,
I feel like giving up already,
I don’t feel like continuing with it anymore.
I just feel like leaving at anytime.

But there is something that keeps me from doing it.
As much as I’d like to, I need to stick with it,
Persevere and work hard for both of it at the same time.

I am having a hard time,
I am feeling burned out already,
Even my body clock’s all messed up.
It’s very hard to do them both at the same time.

I need a break from that one,
I need it soon before I’m the one to break.

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